It is hard to believe that I am in a world without my Mom. She brought me into this place. Sung sweet songs to put me to sleep as a babe. She held me close, to comfort me when ever I was hurt. Seems like she held me close most of my life. She even knew when my heart was hurting and would be there, even if she couldn't make the hurt go away. She was hard on me a lot, but now, I like to think it was to get me ready for a not so nice world. There were lots of times, the roles would change and I would be there to hold her because someone had hurt her badly. I did it with love. She was wrong about many things, as was I . But we loved each other deeply. It was wonderful knowing she was there anytime I needed her. Looking back now, I needed her everyday. She made many mistakes in her life. But I know she is with God and all those wonderful people we call family. So much love was shared when she met them all again, July1st. When it came to family, Mom's heart was large and giving. She gave me many things to love in life. The love of a garden. The love of watching birds eat and play. A simple thing like swinging on her porch. I regret so many mean things I said to her. Now those words tear at my heart. I know, she forgives all the wrong I have done and more than that she loves me deeper now than when she first conceived me. Now that you are truly with God, don't let him forget me. Pray for me mama, so one day, I get to hold you again. Give Dad and all the family my love. Know that you are always in my heart. I love you so very much. Your baby boy, Jeff