Nathan, I miss your big beautiful blue eyes, the freckles on your face, your laugh when you were having fun and when you were up to no good.  I miss your hugs, I miss waking you up and kissing you good night.  I miss racing to Kate's room in the morning to see who could wake her up first.  I miss baseball & the sound of the basketball in the backyard.  I miss the frustrating nights of homework and studying.  I miss your text when you were in your room and I was in mine & you were just saying "hello, I love you mom".  I miss you getting up at the crack of dawn and waking us up.  I miss the way you would look at Kate, like a big brother should.  I miss your smile.  I miss the way no one knew me quite the way you do!! Most of all baby, I miss YOU!  Not sure how I am going to get thru this, not sure how our family will move on.  But I do know, that you will forever be in my heart, my thoughts, and my dreams.  Forever you and me baby!! I love you!!