I've been struggling to find the right words...and I just can't. So, I'll do the best I can. Ken, Mandy...and Jan...I can't remember when I've ever been as heart-broken as I am right now.
I've known Nance for so long, and I can't imagine not hearing the 'HEY, NIK!' on the other end of the line. When I had something big (or little, really) that I needed to say, she was my 'go to girl'. We shared so much over the last 47 years. She was the first one to come when I had my babies. She was the first one (and sometimes the only one) to stand up for me in any situation. She was on my side, no matter what. Just like I'd have HER back...no matter what, even though we were miles apart.
We never let each other down...and it's rare to find a friend like she was to me. We just clicked, back in 1976, and I can't imagine what my life would have been like without her in it. I can't imagine what it's going to be like without her now. I treasure the memories, but I will be sad for a long, long time. It's almost unbearable for me right now. But I will look for little signs from her, letting me know that she's still with me. And I know she is and always will be.
Though my heart is broken, I also know her heart, and I know she's with her Lord and Savior right now, waiting for the rest of us to get there.
This is hard to write, but I want you all to know how much she means to me still. I love you all, and I thank you for sharing your wife, your mother, and your sister with me.
Watch for the 'signs'...if anybody would find a way to send them, Nance will.
I'm lighting a yellow candle in her honor, just like she did for me when my son was deployed so many times. She was so proud.
And to my Nance...I love you...Nik